Thoughts by Adults

Lucy joined a dating site in hopes that she would meet her first love. Lucy has never felt the embrace of a man, she has never heard words of love whispered into her ear. Lucy longs to have a man love her and tell her she is beautiful. She wants to meet her first love and have him give her a marriage proposal under a big sky full of twinkling stars. Lucy dreams of this first love and proposal every night before she goes to bed. While she is laying down Lucy feels is arms embrace her and she hears him whisper soft words in her ear as he plays with her hair.

Sometimes when Lucy awakes she swears she still smells him aroma in the room. She looks down at her bed and can still see the sheets wrinkled in the place where he slept last night. If she listens intently she can still hear his words in her ear, can feel his embrace on her body. She excitedly tells the nurse that walks in to give her daily shot about her marriage proposal. The nurse wrinkles her nose and tells her to settle her down or she'll have to strap her into her bed.

Lucy lies quietly in the bed; it does not matter if this woman does not want to hear her news. All that matters is that she is in love and she will be getting married very soon. Finally she will be free of this horrible prison she has lived all of her life. She will finally get to see the sun shine and she will get to breathe fresh air from outside.

Lucy behaves that day so she can get an hour on the computer; she needs to check the dating site to see if she has messages. This is how he communicates with her during he day, the dating site has a chat room where she can also talk to him, if only the nurse would hurry up with her meds. She is anxious to hear from him and can't wait for him to come back tonight. Lucy closes her eyes as the medicine kicks in, she breaths slowly and evenly and soon is fast asleep. There are no computers in this psychiatric ward, but inside Lucy’s head she is already logging in to the dating site and talking to her fiance.